When to Say I Love You

I want to tell her

but it scares me

I dont want her to leave

but she should know

she knows

I dont hide it well

I just want to say it

I wanna tell her 

everyone I turned away

and everyone I would turn away

a minute ago I thought shed leave me

but even when I thought that

I knew I loved her

what does it mean

what should I say

even if she doesnt say it back

I dont care

I have perfection

and its so imperfect and flawed

its so beautiful 

its angry and loving 

and self destructive and persevering

It is everything that is life

because life is not perfect 

and in its imperfection life is beauty 

I love life

Its ups, its down

The panics, the passions

the good makes the bad worth enduring

I love her

she makes the bad worth enduring

but still Im afraid to let her know