Ash in My Mouth

Every Kiss

Every touch 

Every glance from another




Every time 

that I try

Why do I even bother




You can not be replaced

You can not be remade

You can not fathom how hard this is for me




You can flip it off 

Like a light inside your head

But for me it’s every other

That I wish you were instead




Is your head upon a chest

That is somewhere else than mine

Are you laughing with another

And killing all your time




This is all I think 

As I lay with them in bed

Cause you are all I want

For less my heart is dead